Election Night 2008 was one of the happiest days of my life. In the Seattle Westin's Ballroom, people were jammed wall to wall, crying and laughing together. I heard a gay man on his cellphone telling someone "This is it. This is the beginning. Everything is going to change. I know it!"

No more of this bullshit about throwing out our civil rights in the name of homeland security. No more tortues at Gitmo. No more worries about Roe v. Wade being overturned. Equal rights for GLBT - the right to marry, the right to serve, the right to inherit, the right to attend a dying spouse in the hospital.

I was so elated, I didn't really bother to check the news for months - everything was awesome, what could go wrong?

I finally started taking notice when the waffling about closing Gitmo started. Keeping our troops in Iraq instead of getting them home right away wasn't enough? How much of Bush's old policies were going to be kept going by the new administration?

No repeal of "Don't Ask, Don't Tell". Backtracking even. WTF? Bringing in Sotomayer without nailing down in public her stance on Roe v. Wade.

Earlier this week I posted about my frustration with Obama, including a quote from CNN (William Jelani Cobb):

(CNN) -- Last week Gov. John Lynch signed a bill making New Hampshire the sixth state to legalize same-sex marriage.

It was a paradoxical moment. The new law is a reminder that same-sex marriage is the civil rights issue of our era and just how far the movement for marriage equality has come. It also highlighted the unexpected and remarkable silence from the White House on this issue.

That last sentence should have been a warning. The White House broke it's silence Thursday night:

Obama defends DOMA in federal court. Says banning gay marriage is good for the federal budget. Invokes incest and marrying children.

I suddenly have no words. I cried. I screamed. I swore I would never vote again. I did not think it was possible for a politician to whip us up into such a hopeful frenzy, only to take it all back with one letter to the Supreme Court.

Somewhere, a positive spin theory was posited by a commentor on a blog that I can't remember now - I was desperately looking for any news anywhere that Obama had released a retraction, apology, anything - I just looked at too many different sites to find it again. I gave it 6 hours for Obama to realize all the hell he had just raised, and let us in on his sneaky plan that was really to our benefit afterall.

Instead, I found this:

Obama DOJ lies to Politico in defending hate brief against gays

This about sums it up:

"You see, this is the problem with what Obama did to our community last night. He can talk all he wants about helping us get our civil rights (well, in fact, notice the Justice spokesman said nothing about Obama actually helping us get DOMA repealed), but the Obama administration's own word will now be used against us, and against him, if he ever deigns to actually fulfill even one promise to our community."

Obama, your halo finally hit the ground. Do whatever you want with it, I just can't allow myself to care anymore.

For those of you who do still care, here is the actual text of the brief.